Friday, 19 June 2015

On Feeling Down About Blogging

Warning: long, rambling post ahead. I don't really know where I'm going with this but I'm having one of those meh moments about my blog at the moment so thought I'd just let it all out on here for all you lovely people to read...

When I started blogging properly in December last year, I didn't really know what to expect. I'd read blogs for a while but I wasn't really aware of just how many there were out there and what it was like to actually write one. The main reason I started mine was because I wanted to have a sort of online portfolio of my writing, when applying for future jobs, to go alongside my Journalism degree. It quickly turned into more of a hobby though -  a kind of escape from the day job - and it also introduced me to the blogging community (who are a bloody lovely bunch of people!)

7 months on and I feel like I've come a long way. I've started mixing up my content a lot more, improving my photography and working with different brands. I'm also pretty proud of how my following and readership has grown. But now I've been exposed to this big, wide blogging world and have seen that people actually make careers from this, it's made me want more. And I know it can be a bit taboo to admit this sometimes as there's those people that say "blogging should just be a hobby, 
don't worry about numbers etc" but I think it's hard to not wonder, sometimes.

Unfortunately, wondering about how I could grow this blog further and make it 'better' has resulted in me constantly comparing my blog to others and just feeling generally really down about it. 'Why aren't my photos as good as hers?' 'Why did that post barely get any views?' 'Why isn't my layout as fancy as hers?' are the kind of thoughts I have far too frequently these days. It's made me enjoy blogging a bit less, if I'm honest, which makes me really sad.

I don't think it's the actual blogging that I've stopped enjoying, I still love writing, taking photos and coming up with new content - it's more of the stuff that comes with it. The numbers, the followers, the views. If you want people to actually read your blog, there's a lot more to it than just hitting the post button and hoping for the best.  

Then there's the PR side of things. The part that brings in the sponsorships and the free products. I've dealt with some lovely PR's and brands and it's probably one of my favourite parts of blogging and not just because you might get sent some free stuff (obviously that's a bonus) but because it's the one thing that suddenly makes your blog feel sort of important. Real people are actually contacting you because they value your opinion and need your help. It's a great feeling. But the downside to this is that you will get some people who think they can use your blog to promote their brand/product and give you absolutely nothing in return. It's infuriating, I'm sure many will agree, and can make you feel worthless. I think the only way to deal with this is to simply hit delete and not worry about it.

So, to put it simply, I'm just having one of those moments. I've had a 'low view' week and it's put me in a bit of a mood. It's stupid really because of course you're going to have a post that doesn't do as well as you expected or have a day where you lose 10 instagram followers all at once (maybe that's due to posting 12556 photos of my various visits to Starbucks oops.) It happens. 

I don't really have any words of wisdom to insert here about how to deal with feeling down about blogging because I genuinely don't know how to. I guess it's just something I'll snap out of. I suppose I need to realise that, right now, this blog is a hobby. It's a place to share my thoughts, have a bit of a ramble and meet some lovely people on the way. Maybe it could become something more. Then 
again, do I even want it to become more? I can't even imagine the stress that those who actually rely on their blog as a source of income feel on a daily basis!

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I really want to just start enjoying blogging again and stop getting worked up about how I could improve my blog. Stop worrying about why a post didn't get as many views as others and stop comparing myself to other bloggers who have years of experience. Instead, just sit back and be happy with what I do have. Which is a place on the internet that is completely my own and allows me to get all creative and talk to some seriously cool people. 

So, yeah, I guess I'll just end this post here and stop being such a moody judy! Sorry for a bit of a negative post there guys, I just always feel it helps to get stuff off my chest and perhaps some of you might be able to relate?

If you're a blogger, do you ever get down about your blog? How do you deal with it?

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1 comment

  1. Hi, I posted something a bit similar last week - not feeling down but pondering the whole numbers thing. It seems maybe your mindset is different to mine in that you want your blog to be something more, but I guess I would say just keep at it and write about things you enjoy without getting hung up on followers and views. It will become less of a chore, and true passion will always come through :-)

    Here's my post, it might resonate.



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