Facing My Fears & Making A Change

Happy Monday all! Now, there's something I never thought I'd say. Today marks the start of a new chapter for me (as cheesy as that sounds) and I just thought I'd do a lil bit of a catch up post to tell you what's going on in the life of Beth and what not...

So, on Friday I left my job. My first full time job since graduation last year. I had a bit of an 'epiphany' a couple of months ago, if you will, where I realised that I was very unhappy. I'd been unhappy for a while and I'd kept pushing it to the back of my mind and forcing myself to 'just get on with it' but I knew that the sole reason for this was work. There was nothing wrong with my job, it just didn't fulfill me. 
I was sick of going to bed on a Sunday night feeling literally sick with worry and anxiety over the upcoming week. I knew I needed to do something about it but I was terrified. Terrified of being a failure, of giving up a stable job, a career, money. But I then realised that I'm a 22 year old girl with no children, no mortgage and, thankfully, a very supportive boyfriend and family who will help me out if needs be. I just needed to pluck up the courage to make a change in the one area of my life that was getting me down the most. 
So, to cut a long story short, I've decided to have a complete career change and go into teaching. It's always been something I've considered but I just never really thought I'd have the confidence to do it and, to be completely honest, was far too lazy last year to even think about spending another year in education doing my PGCE. I'm well aware it's a career that has it's challenges and struggles and, who knows, maybe I'll change my mind after I've had some more recent experience. But all I know is that, if I don't try, I'll always regret it. I want to do something worthwhile; that challenges me but also (hopefully) rewards me. Not spend my days in an office counting down the hours until 5pm. 
So I've got a week of chilling before I spend two weeks on a work placement in a primary school and then begin doing cover work with an agency in high schools. If I still feel as passionate about it after that, then I'll apply for my PGCE and hopefully start that next September! It's something I've put a lot of thought into and definitely isn't something that I'm going to jump straight into but, for the first time in a very long time, I feel excited about my future. Even if I am a bit panicky about not having set hours and a set wage etc. Yes, I'm scared of the 'unknown'. What if I actually bloody hate teaching? Will I even get a place on a PGCE? It's completely natural to fear the unknown but, lets be honest, if we don't face up to this fear how will we ever know what's really out there? Getting a bit deep on you there guys, soz. But you get my drift. Happiness is a choice, at the end of the day, and I was making myself unhappy by doing something I clearly didn't want to do. A career isn't the be all and end all. But you spend that long at work each day, it definitely helps if you enjoy it a little! I might change my mind again. And that's okay. Because I'd rather  try, and be unhappy with the outcome, than not try, and have no idea what that outcome could have been. 

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Anyways, I'm sure you're bored of me babbling on about myself now so I'll wrap this post up. Hopefully this post might help anyone else out there who's going through a bit of a quarter life crisis!
On a side note: not working full time properly this month means I should be able to spend more time on blogging (yay!) so I'm going to up my schedule a bit. I'm thinking 5 posts a week and I'm also considering starting advertising for other bloggers! Let me know if this is something you'd be interested in as I really don't know if anyone would actually want to?
How have you faced your fears or made a change recently? 

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